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  • yes girl you are so [if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more] [hands are unbearably beautiful] [i'll take care of you it's rotten work not to me not if it's you] [if you are intolerable let me be the one to tolerate you] [i could recognise him by touch alone] [i love you i want us both to eat well] [on purpose i love you on purpose] [whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same] [i am half agony half hope] [you have bewitched me body and soul and i love love love you] [he is half of my soul as the poets say] [i'm sick of people saying that love is all a woman is fit for but i'm so lonely] [i love you most ardently] [let me stay tender hearted despite despite despite] [someone has to leave first this is a very old story there is no other version of this story] [mostly i want to be kind] [tell me how all this and love too will ruin us] [you said i killed you haunt me then] [someone somewhere can you understand me a little love me a little] [i will love you as misfortune loves orphans as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong] [sorry about the blood in your mouth i wish it was mine] [who will come into my kitchen and be hungry for me] can we kiss now

  • going on long walks and making playlists for every mood and knowing a bunch of weird stuff and collecting random things and being obsessed with a morally grey fictional character is actually so important

  • Speaking of books it's been a while since I've seen one of these posts going around & I'm curious so everyone could you tell me what you are reading rn in the tags please

  • does anyone else get the feeling the HBO h*rry p*tter reboot series is only happening because the majority of the cast (particularly the trio) denounced JKR and thus she’s attempting to rebrand it with people who she deems like minded? ick 

  • What makes JKR's shitshow even harder to process is that she didn't just ruin a book series. Harry Potter was an entire subculture. Like Star Wars and Star Trek fans, Harry Potter fans dedicated their lives and careers to the series. I don't know if I'd call it "underground," but liking Harry Potter got you beaten up when I was in school, so it was more of a dedicated indie culture than a mass-appeal fanbase.

    Harry Potter was so huge that fan works developed their own followings. Potter Puppet Pals racked up hundreds of thousands of followers and was nearly as relevant as the series itself. For fanfiction, Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality got so big that it has a Wikipedia page. The band Harry and the Potters spawned the wizard rock music genre. A Very Potter Musical developed a fanbase and launched Darren Criss's career.

    Harry Potter also has extensive ties to fandom history. Everyone in my generation (millennials) remembers coming home from school to read Harry Potter fanfiction on the Internet. Today, most people just post their stories on Wattpad or Archive of Our Own. But at the time, the fanbase was splintered between fanfiction.net and dozens of individual websites and forums, some made for specific ships. Since they all had individual hosts, a lot of those sites have been lost to time.

    And there's the infamous My Immortal fanfiction, which is an Internet legend with people still searching for the author. Everybody read that one (and laughed at it) in middle school.

    Pre-social media, fan sites like The Leaky Cauldron and Mugglenet had massive followings because they were one of few sources for news, theories, essays and fan content. Some of these sites still exist after being around for over a decade and building their own legacy.

    Before Deathly Hallows came out, fans were so desperate to know what happened that Mugglenet published a book called What Will Happen in Harry Potter 7: Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Falls in Love and How Will the Adventure Finally End? Yep...Harry Potter was so big that people wrote separate books about what would happen in an upcoming book.

    And that's not mentioning all the book release parties, Harry Potter-themed events, monuments, fan films, restaurants and even a theme park. A lot of fandoms have those, but Harry Potter infiltrated every aspect of popular culture.

    Today, there's a thriving culture of "Harry Potter adults" with themed weddings, baby showers and Etsy stores. Putting your Hogwarts house in your Instagram bio is pretty much a prerequisite for joining the "bookish" community. Warner still produces new content, like the Fantastic Beasts series, although we've all seen what a disaster that's been.

    Everyone has at least a few memories associated with Harry Potter even if it's just watching the movies. I had great memories associated with Harry Potter. But looking back at the subculture, history and thousands of fan works, it doesn't seem fun anymore. Studying the fandom or being part of it comes with an awkward tension because you don't want to seem like you're condoning JKR's bigotry but can't divorce her from the series. This subculture was spawned by a woman who turned her legacy of magic and wonder into one of abuse and hatred.

    I don't expect people to write paragraphs about how much they hate JKR every time they post about Harry Potter, but it's still uncomfortable to see people make new content or wear their Harry Potter Etsy tote bags like nothing happened. Even if they clarify that they don't support her, it's just a weird, tense situation for everybody.

    People dedicated years of their lives to running Harry Potter fan sites, writing fanfiction, cosplaying characters and making fan movies. If I were in that situation, I'd have a mild identity crisis. I'd ask myself "Did I waste all those years? Should I delete my content? Where do I go from here?"

    So ultimately, JKR didn't ruin "just" a book series or even "just" a fandom. She tanked an entire culture, which inspired people to look at Harry Potter more critically. The issues that people brought to the light tainted the series's legacy even without JKR's personal issues.

    Once, Harry Potter was a series for generations. Now, former fans hope that the series fades into irrelevancy. Unfortunately, JKR didn't just tarnish her legacy--she took decades of history, millions of fans and a worldwide subculture along with her.

  • it’s crazy having been super-involved in the HP fandom for more than a decade and watching the fallout from this

    quidditch (the real sport) has changed its name to quadball

    the harry potter alliance (a nonprofit) has rebranded to fandom forward

    the sub-subcultures that sprung up within the HP fandom have now distanced themselves from the main fandom and have become independent groups in their own right

    HP was so integral to the development of early online fandom (as OP’s mentioned) that now there’s sort of just a weird... hole in the internet

    for many HP fans, it took up a lot of their life. three conventions a year, wizard rock shows, HPA fundraising, granger leadership academy, nightly fanfic, podcasts, quidditch games.

    when fans (rightfully) shunned JKR and began to leave the fandom, a lot of them (myself included) were left rudderless. how do you reconcile the fact that most of your friends, hobbies, sometimes even jobs, were due to the work of such a hateful person? as OP said, did i waste my life?

    i’m obviously not saying that this is the worst part about JKR’s bigotry (the worst part is, of course, the bigotry) or that HP fans are the worst-done-by victims (who are of course trans people)

    but it is WILD to see such a juggernaut of internet fandom be virtually scrubbed away

  • look i dislike the corporate artstyle book cover trend as much as the next person but we cant pretend every book looking the same is something new. if you stepped into a bookstore in 2013 there would be approximately 57 books whose cover art consisted of a girl in a ballgown with her back half-turned to the camera photoshopped into a vaguely fantasy-like landscape. i was 11 years old fighting for my life to find the right maximalistic girl and her single-adjective book title we cannot forget the horrors i went through please be respectful of my experiences

  • hey little girl is your daddy home did he go away and leave you all alone ohoh i got a bad desire oooooooh im on fire TELL ME NOW BABY IS HE GOOD TO YOU CAN HE DO TO YOU THE THINGS THAT I DO OHOH I CAN TAKE YOU HIGHER OOOOOOOOOO IM ON FIRE SOMETIMES IT’S LIKE SOMEONE TOOK A KNIFE BABY EDGY AND DULL AND CUT A SIX-INCH VALLEY THROUGH THE MIDDLE OF MY SKULL AT NIGHT I WAKE UP WITH MY SHEETS SOAKING WET AND A FREIGHT TRAIN RUNNING THROUGH THE MIDDLE OF MY HEAD ONLY YOU CAN COOL MY DESIRE OOOOOOOOOOH IM ON FIRE OOOOOOH IM ON FIRE OOOOUHUUUHUGUGIIIIHGUHIIIIIIUHUFGHGHH

    userzil:
“ PETER III and CATHERINE THE GREAT
THE GREAT — 3x03: “You The People” (2023)
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    userzil:
“ PETER III and CATHERINE THE GREAT
THE GREAT — 3x03: “You The People” (2023)
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  • PETER III and CATHERINE THE GREAT
    THE GREAT — 3x03: “You The People” (2023)

  • Happy pride month to sleepwalking lesbians and their horrified wives, bisexuals who are fine with their sexuality but not fine with being in love with their high school bestie, JV soccer coaches, lesbians who would rather die to spite the girl they love than admit they're gay, church girlies who fell in love with a prophetess they made themselves, milfs who "don't believe in labels", bisexuals who fell in love with one guy in high school and spend the rest of their life going back to him until he's gone, lesbians who are entirely obsessed with their besties to the point of absorbing their traits like a twin in the womb, milf chasing bisexuals, lesbians who cannot be killed by fire nor by wolves nor (probably) by cancer, snarky sapphics, musical theater gays, little boys with two moms, backwards-baseball-hat lesbians, femme princesses who want to emulate their teammates, men fridged for their adjacence to a queer woman, mlm with a favorite lesbian, baby brothers who never figured it out, sapphics studying for the SATs, the children of women closeted in the 90s, and the straight girl whose leg they broke.

  • SORRY I FORGOT THE STRAWBERRY LUBE ENTHUSIASTS

  • dailycolorfulgifs:
“I killed my best friend. The only person… I loved. The only person who knew me.
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“I killed my best friend. The only person… I loved. The only person who knew me.
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“I killed my best friend. The only person… I loved. The only person who knew me.
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  • I killed my best friend. The only person… I loved. The only person who knew me.

  • laura lee as a drug dealer: [giggling] sorry we don't have coke, is pepsi okay?

  • "romeo should have checked if juliet was really dead"

    "orpheus just shouldn't have turned around"

    "rose could have made space for jack on that door"

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  • thinking about how prequels are almost always tragedies. there cannot be honour. there cannot be happy endings. the hero isn't here. the hero isn't even born yet.

  • i’m evolved i think pda is actually a good and fine thing even when straight people do it but especially when gay people do. it’s nice to see love in public don’t be a hater grab a loved one and smooch them in line for your pretzel bites or something

  • it’s so weird cuz i’m so happy n fulfilled n the only time i ever crave romantic intimacy is when i want cuddles cuz it’s 3 am and i’m cold or horny or whatever. like i have my job n my goals n my friends n my writing and i’m happy actually

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